Trials & Tears

Each day here in Mongu is a new challenge, yet each day is getting better than the one before it. There have been several trials and yes tears in my eyes. The joke between me and Loombe (my roommate) is that my program is officially the “I Don’t Know” program. I will start my day with a specific program in mind, and then there will be a knock on the door with someone here to pick me for a program that they set for me. An adventure yes every day. And everyday filled with more unknowns.

My first day here I found out I had a wrong visa for the work I was to do…so we spent most of the morning getting me a work permit…can you have two different visas in the same country for the same time period? HUM. Guess I will find out when I get ready to leave the country.

Being here in Mongu has brought to the surface fears that dwell inside of me that are not as present while back at home. I am seeing more and more that I have a HUGE fear of being alone. I can see through this experience that God is trying to teach me to rely on Him for EVERYTHING and is bringing to the surface things that I have not fully surrendered to Him. One lesson that I must be reminded of constantly…and a tough one at that…Even more I am experiencing a much stronger desire for a life long companion.

These past few days have been EXTREMELY difficult and challenging usually starting with a “Lord equip me” prayer. Please pray that I would become more comfortable here in Mongu by myself. And that my fears would be subsided so I can focus on serving God whole heartedly without these fears getting in the way.

“Each day becomes precious because each day is part of the process that takes us nearer to the heart of God” Cynthia Heald